So I have really been struggling with a reading and study plan. In my mind I would love to follow one of the million Bible reading plans out there but honestly, there is no way I am going to do a daily reading plan at the pace set aside to finish the whole Bible in a year. Why should I? Did God ever tell me, “Thou shalt read the Bible in a year?” Nope, He sure did not. I am instructed to learn my whole life long. I must be a good steward of the gospel. By doing so, I will be capable of helping others find their way too.
Well, I have just learned the very hard way that I am stumped completely by all the plans. I must follow the lead of my divine Father in heaven. I should read as it feels right in my soul to read. I will study until I find my way. I will only move forward when my mind absorbs everything God has for me. Then, I can proceed to the next thing. Forget about following in the footsteps of other humans and set my eyes on the footsteps of Jesus Christ. In this way I will find freedom and love.
This hasn’t been my only obstacle to study though. I have found myself feeling like procrastinating and having a hard time identifying why. I have finally been able to see the link. I have not been giving 100% of myself to anything lately. I do not mean that I need to overreach on things. I also do not want to put more of myself out there than I have to give. I just mean that when I commit to a thing, I should give my best, be all in. I have been very lax in this regard for several months. I have begun to recognize the harm it is doing to my mood. It is also affecting my life. I am committing to take better of my physical, emotional, and most important spiritual self. I commit to myself and pray to God to help me follow through. Peace of God be with you!
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